Calculus and drama can go together

I am about to embark on my second semester of night school. Last semester, I was thankfully taking calculus 1 at a cegep just down the road from my house. I am not so fortunate this semester, and I have to use about 3 hours of my day in travel.

The good news is that the end is in sight. One more semester, then three more classes in the summer (fingers crossed) and voila, degree in hand.

Calculus has a special place in my books. I failed it the first time I enrolled. It was my first semester of University. I had just moved out, officially, for the first time, and I had a painful falling out with a dear friend, thus, I had other things on my plate. I forgot about math for the time being, and pursued my education without caring about the end of the road, where I would have to re-encounter the calculus demons once again, or drop out and dismiss all of the work I had put into obtaining a science degree from McGill university (snooty plug-in).

After my first or second class of calculus 1, the second time I took it, I called my co-star in a complete panic. I didn't think I could do it. I was convinced I was going to fail a second time around, and especially since I got a failing grade on my first assignment, I was sure I was destined for another semester of misery, and was contemplating dropping the class. My love gave me courage, however, and I succeeded in the course with a final grade of 82%. I've never been very good at math at first, and I usually have to fail something once to do well in it eventually, but I'm pretty happy with this grade, and proud of all the work I put into it.


During the course of taking calculus 1 the second time, at night school, I was crushing big-time on my teacher, who wasn't that much older than I was. I am in a committed relationship, and I know my partner was hurt by this, especially when I went out for diner with my teacher (strictly platonic dining), but it turns out I am dangerously attracted to guys who are good at math. Lucky for my boyfriend, he's also very good at math, so there was no question of me leaving him.

I pray that my new teacher is 1) an excellent teacher 2) non-intimidating 3) knows night school students don't want to become mathematicians per say 4) is someone I am not attracted to. I don't know if my heart can take much more ups and downs, so rest my soul, math is for science, not for lovin'!